Feeling Fulfilled | Jin’s February 2022

Ahhh February, the month for love. February can feel a little extra lonely for the single people out there but I realized it's important to just be grateful and learn to love yourself. Even as a single gal, my February turned out to be one of the most fulfilling months I had in a while and I didn't even have time to feel lonely. I hope everyone had a lovely February, whatever your relationship status was.



 

Lifestyle: Friends, Work, & Dating


This month, I got to hang out with so many of my friends and I feel so lucky to do so! Life started to feel slowly but surely like the life I was living pre-pandemic, though I know that Covid is not over. I was lucky that more of my friends were down to hang out and catch up with me. So many of my friends had so much exciting news from moving, new jobs, to new relationships. It truly felt like we were growing into the place we were all meant to and I always am so happy whenever I see my friends thriving. I even got to do some fun weekend trips this month from San Diego to Santa Barbara where I was able to create some great memories to look back into.


This month, work has been challenging. I think with anything new, there are learning curves and anxiety of the unknown. However, I started to feel proud of my growth even in the short amount of time I've been there from owning projects and making active decisions to get them done. I'm excited to see visible growth since that's the reason I wanted to switch into a new job and I'm excited to see where I'll be even from a month from now. I'm also glad to see that I started to become friends with my co-workers from bonding over our caffeine addiction (especially for our love for Celsius), work fashion, and our love for food. It's weird to think that they're a lot older than me since I'm the youngest in my team but I don't feel like there's any awkwardness due to age.


This month, I decided to really and I mean really step out of my comfort zone and say yes to a date. The date was super unexpected as it was someone I met through a mutual friend in a large group who asked me through Instagram. Normally, I would have said no right away but going into 2022, I told myself that I would be more open to new experiences. Therefore, I decided to just go for it and have fun, which is how it's been going. I'm not sure where this is leading but I do know that I'm just enjoying the moment and I'm so proud of myself for doing so. I'm not going to lie, it feels good to have someone treat you well and seem genuinely interested in just getting to know you more. It also allowed me to learn more about myself from the questions I get asked about myself.




 

Lows: Russian Invasion on Ukraine


As fulfilled my personal life has been this month, I can't help but feel guilty for the normal and grateful life I get to live. This month, Russia made the invasion on Ukraine and so many innocent people's lives were and are affected. It's crazy that now I get to see the war happening in live-action on social media such as Tik Tok, where normal people are showing what is going on in their day-to-day lives. It'll be one TikTok of someone in Ukraine showing literal bombs going off and then the next TikTok would just be someone dancing on the app. It feels surreal that I get to watch these wars happening through the eyes of the people there but I get the privilege to turn off the screen and go on with my life. It gave me a reality check and made me appreciate the normal life that I get to live from just waking up, going to work, and being with my family.


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* Click on: "1. Ukraine Crisis" under the "Direct my Donation To" section.

 

Lessons: Loving Myself


The date I mentioned in my lifestyle section happened only after Valentine's day so I had the pleasure to spend Valentine's Day alone this year. When I say pleasure, I truly mean it because I was honestly so happy and content with my life that I was not at all sad about spending Valentine's Day alone. I decided to make it more special and pick up some flowers, chocolate, and boba after work to treat myself as gift-giving is one of my top love languages. I learned that I don't need to wait on anyone to get these things for me because I can do them myself, especially knowing how happy it'll make me! I am proud of this growth because last year, I was not at the same place I am right now. I think I was way sadder to be spending it alone, though I luckily had Stephanie for a Galentine's Week Trip in San Francisco. Therefore, I truly recognize the growth I made with loving myself and putting myself first. I think this mindset brings me full circle to saying yes to the date because had I not reached this point, I don't think I would have said yes. They also say that things come unexpectedly when you're not searching for something and I feel like that's what happened. I'm. not sure what any of this will lead to but I'm learning to not think too far and just enjoy the process.

 

Songs on Repeat:

Top Songs -

carpool - Zachary Knowles
A LOT - John K
Start Up - Jonathan & Friends, Loote, emma lov
 

My Pick of the Month: Celsius



If you are friends with me in real life, you would know that I have been obsessed with Celsius for quite a bit but especially this month. My favorite flavor right now is the tropical vibe but I also really like the kiwi guava. I also love the fact that my coworkers and I started to notice that we were all drinking Celsius. This became kind of became the main bonding point with us and we started joking about how Celsius should just sponsor our office. One of our co-workers even bought two cases of Celsius for the office to share and it was gone in a few days. I think I should honestly cut back on drinking so much of these but they honestly taste pretty good and give me the energy boost I need while working. I used to be obsessed with Yerba Mate in college and I feel as though Celsius is just my post-grad version of that. I still love my coffee but I also love drinking Celsius on my non-coffee days. Sometimes I drink both but I don't recommend that since that is a lot of caffeine. I'm going to try to cut back on Celsius, coffee, and caffeine in general so wish me luck! But, if you haven't tried these, I recommend you give them a taste.

 

Thank you for checking in on me and seeing how my February went. I hope you had just as fulfilling of a month as me, if not more. Remember to treat yourself kindly and learn to love yourself! No matter what, you'll always be there for yourself so it's important to learn to show yourself more love. I'm very much looking forward to next month and I can't wait to catch up with you next.


Talk to you next month,

-- Jin